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me and jeffy broke up and now it doesnt even seem like he kare for me
anymore.. i just get ignore and u know it.. doesnt even feel like it
was before like u sed it was gunna be. but first off u did me and then
lefted me.. wtf.. and now on ur profile u asking who shud i take to
prom.. i thought we was gunna go together but i guess u dont want to be
seen with me anymore. u prolly want to ask that azn girl that got ur
fone number.
ugh u make me so mad sometimes that i want to hurt myself. yea wudnt u
like that. i wrote all these things for u and u just ignore it. all u
kare about now is games and ur parents. i cant fit in ur schedule that
u put me on. guess it didnt mean anything what we went through..
To Be Continued....
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| when i like a popular guy or just one i know i got no chance with i
never say anything to them and act as normal as i can cuz i kow that i
can never be with them. been thinking a lot lately on the bus or when i
got time alone. to me jeffy seems like a popular guy with the ladies
and also with the guys. he tells me that all these azn girls at his
school like him. what am i suppose to think besides that he seems
popular to me. to myself i think of me as a loser with no friends and
no one likes me besides paul and pj. thats who i normally wud hang out
with at school. i try not to express how i like jeffy cuz im scared
that he will turn on me. even though he say he isnt there is always a
possiblity that he will no matter what he says. thats why i was scared
at frist to go out with u. even now when we talk on the fone im scared
to talk to u about things cuz u cud get mad or offended. u can think
whatever u want but this is how im feeling rite now.
you are the popular guy always changing. never asking me what i like.
when u dyed ur hair it made me feel that girls will like u more and
then u will forget about me.i cant help but to think of that. i dont
know what to think. ur always a mystery to me now. i dont know whats
going on and u never see me anymore and it makes me think that u dont
like me anymore and that saddens me. im always thinking what wud happen
if this happened and if this happened. my head hurts from thinking so
much. as i write this tears are falling down my face.. then u didnt
even ask me about school yesterday. i had a bad day. the guys in my
tech class kept doing things that pissed me off and i cudnt take it
anymore so i cried. it really made me mad but u didnt even ask how my
day was. if jack saw me cry he wuda got mad and ask the guys wtf
happened cuz thats what he did when he saw me cry the first time. u
dont even do anything about it. just like ehhhh..
oh and then our fone kalls are like dead now and dont be like
everythings ok cuz its not ok?! i liked it when u used to try and come
see me. like lie to ur mom or argue but u dont seem to do that anymore.
sometimes i wonder things like u got me now so u dont have to try
anymore. like im always urs and u can come to me whenever u want and
whenever u dont want to. its like im a prize and u finally won me over.
now i feel like a used toy and u want somone better. u told me why i
cudnt be like the other girls. maybe i dont want to be like the other
girls. im different and i want to stay that way and if u dont like it
then leave. this is how i feel and if u dont like it get the FUCK OUT!
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| gary is the coolest kid in this school...
welps.. havent updated lately. just really didnt kare about this page and no one is coming here anymore so whats the point in updating. eh. buh oh wells. it doesnt matter.
Jeffy: eh. i dont think we doing so good. we havent talked in a long time. we've just been playing world of warcraft and nothing else. our fone conversaions are like this: ....... all silence and all i do is ask questions. and im kinda gettin tired of that so sometimes i think that we're not going anywhere and he doesnt seem to kare. everything is so different now. we've seem to b like strangers to each other. i barely even know him anymore. its kinda sad actually. i never go out anymore bcuz i want to hang out with him. but it seems like he doesnt got the time for me. since he is always doing something else. maybe this going out deal was the bad idea. im sure not gunna end it. jeffys the one that wants this more than i do prolly. iano.. i dont know whats wrong with him. he doesnt tell me. and things are just a mess. iano if we are ever going to be the same anymore.
Diana: dianas bday was yest!! ^^ happy bday girl! now u can get ur permit and run ppl over so i better watch out on the streets for u. even tho ur in florida. it doesnt matter ull run me over in one way or another! haha. jp girl u know i love u even tho i dont show it!^^
School: its been a total drag. spring break is right around the corner. yesterday at lindbergh was so ez! had 1 and a half tests. pizza. and it just flew by. paul got to see lauren yest and i was suppose to see jeffy to. but he didnt tell me in time that he cudnt see me. how fucking rude is that? that kinda pissed me off but i dont think he kares to much about that since when im mad he laughs.. at tech guys still pickin on me. throwing me around and the usually stuff since im the only girl in here. i mean its not all that bad. n oh yea pj got his license last week. congrats on that one boi! n jack is being his usual self. still tryin to get with me n shit but im not letting him. he was like whenever u want some kall me. so i was like i can only kall u when i want some? haha. he was like kall me whenever u want then. i laughed so hard. his so funny. then greg tried to take out a fuel injector without saftey glasses and the fuel sprayed all over his face and he cud not see shit! so dan walked him over to the eye wash. |
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